Not- anything juicy, just a small vent. I bought my tv, a 37 in, several years ago. It's basic, not a smart tv, but it's mine and I bought it new when I was getting set up on my own. I've had a few different friends come by that made comments about it being too small, how I needed a bigger one. Not offering to buy or give me one, just saying I needed one. One asked on several occasions if I'd gotten a bigger one yet. Tbh, their comments hurt my feelings and I felt they were rude....Not- anything juicy, just a small vent. I bought my tv, a 37 in, several years ago. It's basic, not a smart tv, but it's mine and I bought it new when I was getting set up on my own. I've had a few different friends come by that made comments about it being too small, how I needed a bigger one. Not offering to buy or give me one, just saying I needed one. One asked on several occasions if I'd gotten a bigger one yet. Tbh, their comments hurt my feelings and I felt they were rude. I would never go into someone's home and make such comments.
I keep myself up at night because I simply don't want to think. I'm currently coming to terms with the fact that my life will not in fact be a smooth road that I can plan out step by step ahead of time, and it's absolutely destroying me. It's 4:30AM where I am and I'm so exhausted, but I know if I try to go to sleep, my brain will keep me up with those thoughts and it'll send me spiraling, so I've stayed up to prevent any of those thoughts from resurfacing
I'm 40 and then some. My family (mom, dad, brother, stepdad + stepsisters) all talk badly about me behind my back. I don't feel like I'm worth having any friends yet the lonliness and isolation is hard to deal with.
I hold a lot of resentment towards my mother for letting me and my brother grow up in a hoarder house, but I can’t talk about it to anyone because if people found out about the neglect I went through it would ruin her life and I love her too much to do that to her.
Please pray to God through Jesus Christ, read the Bible and go to church or watch it online for better health, wealth, happiness, peace and love. Thank you
I’m so scared of being taken by ICE in this country!!!! I have my papers but they dont care!!!! I just want to live and I want my loved ones to be safe but we’re veering into such unprecedented times way too fast and I barely even got to start my life. I’m so exhausted and scared and its sapping all the enjoyment from everything I try to do. Living in this country is like a physical manifestation of misery looming over me with a pointed finger
Man I love that girl. Okay I'm a high school student, I'm taking science. I'm in section A okay and there in section B there's a really sweet girl whom I admire so much. She's short, small and cute, not to mention she's the captain of the class. Well I'm also short, a 5' approx, but she's even shorter, I like her, everything about her, her hair, her smile, her eyes, her voice and her personality. She's so calm and sweet, reminds me of Hinata, only if I could be like Naruto. She often comes to the library to read,...Man I love that girl. Okay I'm a high school student, I'm taking science. I'm in section A okay and there in section B there's a really sweet girl whom I admire so much. She's short, small and cute, not to mention she's the captain of the class. Well I'm also short, a 5' approx, but she's even shorter, I like her, everything about her, her hair, her smile, her eyes, her voice and her personality. She's so calm and sweet, reminds me of Hinata, only if I could be like Naruto. She often comes to the library to read, and we sometimes encounter each other there but there's no talking in between us cause I'm such a donut I feel shy to even look at her, forget eye contact. But she has never been rude to me, nor to anyone else, cause she's so sweet I would give her a queen tag. She's so cool.
Whenever I get thoughts I don't enjoy having, i.e. lustful or suicidal, I immediately internally scream WAAAARRRR inside my head and imagine cool helicopters flying and blowing shit up and armies of soldiers marching and cool big firefights with cool nu-metal and rock to distract me from the bad thoughts. It works
Not autistic, btw
I wish you could send me a message. I wish I can see you. It’s been ages since we haven’t met. I wish you remember me every time you see the small things we always talked about. I’m sorry if I don’t reach out first like I used to. But I can’t do that all the time when a conversation goes both ways. I’ll always be here if you wanted to talk.I’ll always be there for you. I know you still feel lonely sometimes but I’m sure you got the hang of it. I’m so proud of the version...I wish you could send me a message. I wish I can see you. It’s been ages since we haven’t met. I wish you remember me every time you see the small things we always talked about. I’m sorry if I don’t reach out first like I used to. But I can’t do that all the time when a conversation goes both ways. I’ll always be here if you wanted to talk.I’ll always be there for you. I know you still feel lonely sometimes but I’m sure you got the hang of it. I’m so proud of the version you’ve become.I stopped texting because I didn’t want to bother you because I knew this year meant so much to you. I only knew how much you valued me when I stopped texting you. I hate how busy you are. How you don’t give me some of your time. How I make time for you even when I’m busy. I know I’m not one of your priorities. But stupidly you are one of mine. I don’t know if we’ll get to meet each other again. But if it’s meant to be, It’ll happen. Over time, I realised that I don’t really like you. I just wanted to be you. Have your qualities. And be as successful as you. I’m not jealous though. I know each one of us has its own story. It’s just that I admired that one thing about your work and personality and wanted to have it too. I’m sorry if I flirted too much. But hey I was funny at least XD. Anyways I wish you the best. Hey I’m best. See I’m funny still haha . Anyway love you Xoxo.
I'm so sorry. I'm looking back on what we had and I absolutely shouldn't have lashed out at you through messages. I wish I could have been more understanding about how busy you were and not take it personally. I honestly also felt played by you because you went back and forth from being charming to distant. You've blocked me and I'll never get the chance to make things right and give you the acknowledgement you deserve.
Or take back those hurtful words. What happened to me? Why did I become so bitter and unable to give a man some...I'm so sorry. I'm looking back on what we had and I absolutely shouldn't have lashed out at you through messages. I wish I could have been more understanding about how busy you were and not take it personally. I honestly also felt played by you because you went back and forth from being charming to distant. You've blocked me and I'll never get the chance to make things right and give you the acknowledgement you deserve.
Or take back those hurtful words. What happened to me? Why did I become so bitter and unable to give a man some slack? I don't want to be this way. People said you manipulated me. I discovered some things you lied about to me. But I'd still like to be able to pass you on the street and be ok with you. I wish I could have just walked away from you with some grace. What was genuine?