I'm 40 and then some. My family (mom, dad, brother, stepdad + stepsisters) all talk badly about me behind my back. I don't feel like I'm worth having any friends yet the lonliness and isolation is hard to deal with.
Live your own life you will be better off.
I'm sure they all justify it in their own way. I spent so much of my own life trying to make my own family's lives better. Blood, sweat, and tears. It didn't matter. None of them truly wanted to change who they were to make their lives better. I fought uphill many times to try to make things better; they fought me every step of the way. What I'm trying to say is that you can't choose your family, but you can choose your friends. We care about you, and if you need to leave your family, there are people that can help you distance from them in order for you to be your best self. You have friends. đ
Be blessed.