I kinda lost myself in life in recent times, I forced a relationship that I knew it wasnt right for me and then it ended with breakup obviously, I was forcing it because I was afraid of being alone and that nobody will ever love me since I got asthma.. I did good things after breakup I dedicated this whole time only for myself to discover myself and work on my mindset, and I been progressing a lot Im so proud on me, I stopped chasing people or forcing connections, I let the life flow naturally. Only thing I am...I kinda lost myself in life in recent times, I forced a relationship that I knew it wasnt right for me and then it ended with breakup obviously, I was forcing it because I was afraid of being alone and that nobody will ever love me since I got asthma.. I did good things after breakup I dedicated this whole time only for myself to discover myself and work on my mindset, and I been progressing a lot Im so proud on me, I stopped chasing people or forcing connections, I let the life flow naturally. Only thing I am missing is doing the action , doing things that I want to such as going to learn French language , going to dancing lessons, opening myself to meeting new people, those 3 things is what I crave for but I still didnt do anything about that. At times I feel lonely , most of my friends moved to different cities or got married, I was feeling bit jelous at times but later I realized life would be boring if we all had same destiny and same timing, so I know God will let amazing woman enter my life and me getting married at the right time so I stopped overthinking about that topic. There are still good and bad days in my life but I am trying to keep a positive mindset, and now I am finally asking myself the right questions and having a different perspective on life situations, and I am feeling lighter than ever. Biggest lesson I learned is love firstly and mostly comes from inside myself. Meditations help me and in all of them God tells me just to be myself 101% and that right people will resonate with me. And thats what I am going to do from now on. No chasing , no forcing.. just me being me. I locked in during period of individuation which was helpful but now its time for me to be open to the world.
My boyfriend broke up with me, and I realize that I don't remember anything about the relationship. I thought that everything was a blur and dream-like with him because "I was in love" but now that it's over I realized I've been dissociating this whole time because I don't feel secure or safe with him. He threatened to break up with me during every disagreement, screamed at me and said that he was forced to yell because my actions made him, everything was my fault and I don't know why but if I asked he would get mad and say,...My boyfriend broke up with me, and I realize that I don't remember anything about the relationship. I thought that everything was a blur and dream-like with him because "I was in love" but now that it's over I realized I've been dissociating this whole time because I don't feel secure or safe with him. He threatened to break up with me during every disagreement, screamed at me and said that he was forced to yell because my actions made him, everything was my fault and I don't know why but if I asked he would get mad and say, "you should just know." I woke up two days in a row and my first thought was, "I'm glad it's finally over."
I’m currently dealing with the breakup from the love of my life. The breakup was terrible and it completely broke me. I went to a therapist, and she noticed that I wasn’t showing signs of grief, but of trauma. It turns out I have Complex PTSD from childhood abuse, and meeting my ex puts me into trauma loops. Because of that, I have to avoid him completely — but I can’t tell him, because it would hurt him. I also can’t tell anyone, not my family or my friends (who are also his friends), because it would... I’m currently dealing with the breakup from the love of my life. The breakup was terrible and it completely broke me. I went to a therapist, and she noticed that I wasn’t showing signs of grief, but of trauma. It turns out I have Complex PTSD from childhood abuse, and meeting my ex puts me into trauma loops. Because of that, I have to avoid him completely — but I can’t tell him, because it would hurt him. I also can’t tell anyone, not my family or my friends (who are also his friends), because it would hurt them too.
We're both 16 yrs old at that time. And now, 2 years have passed, we promised each other secrets even on the future that we'll be together for the rest of our lives. We even broke our parents rules just to have time for each other. I always make the effort to talk to you although you were the one who liked me first. You fell first but I fell harder, but after our school year ended you told me that we should stop talking cause that's what's better for us and for our future. And now. Why are you...We're both 16 yrs old at that time. And now, 2 years have passed, we promised each other secrets even on the future that we'll be together for the rest of our lives. We even broke our parents rules just to have time for each other. I always make the effort to talk to you although you were the one who liked me first. You fell first but I fell harder, but after our school year ended you told me that we should stop talking cause that's what's better for us and for our future. And now. Why are you talking with another girl?? What a God's plan to "accidentally" you two were going into a date. She was so into you that you've forgotten who've touched you lips, made you felt special, I were your best supporter. I'd sacrifice everything for you. And now, I'm struggling here from your actions. I still wanna be with you. You're charm and manipulation made me feel so stupid. should've seen the signs. Now, I just want to forget you even though we're on the same school. revenge was creeping into me but I won't. I don't deserve to get my time be wasted again just for a guy like you. I hope I move on soon, guide me dear Lord.
i'm not over the guy i thought i was over. and i feel like i'll never move on. i told myself i would be fine, but every time we speak again, i crumble.
I find it hard to watch or absorb any sort of fictional media because I get legitimately jealous that those things can't happen in real life, sometimes to the point where I genlt angry or depressed. It feels like some kind of cruel prank by God to make our lives so mundane, but to still give us the ability to imagine something infinitely better. I know it sounds pathetic, but I just can't stop myself from thinking like this for some reason.
I keep my heart warm for you, in the hopes you’ll come back some day. I keep it soft and silky so that if you do come back it’s gentler to you. I dream of you every night when I sleep, but even if you don’t come back I will keep on warm for myself.
I have such a hard time thinking anyone could ever like me. I feel so stupid and genuenly left behind, I don’t feel pretty, smart or anything along those lines. My best friend likes to make jokes like “are you stupid” and stuff like that and she’s really my only friend and even though it’s a joke it makes me feel so hurt for no reason because my confidence is so shit. I’m chatty and love people and it genuenly hurts when i feel like noone actually likes me and i’m just there. The fact that i’m 17 and still...I have such a hard time thinking anyone could ever like me. I feel so stupid and genuenly left behind, I don’t feel pretty, smart or anything along those lines. My best friend likes to make jokes like “are you stupid” and stuff like that and she’s really my only friend and even though it’s a joke it makes me feel so hurt for no reason because my confidence is so shit. I’m chatty and love people and it genuenly hurts when i feel like noone actually likes me and i’m just there. The fact that i’m 17 and still like childish things like stuffies and colourful clothes doesn’t really help with anything. This is such a non issue but I wanted to write everything out just to feel a bit better abt myself.
Hello i am X, i found out the person i loved for a 4 seasons was emotionally cheating on me with different people while i was helping them build life now he left to Germany for his higher studies i dont know i feel broken and there is a void in my heart because i love him with all my heart even though i know he betrayed and did everything that broke me into pieces and the way he never changed the pattern was clear i was blinded by his manipulation the chaos. I know my love should end but...Hello i am X, i found out the person i loved for a 4 seasons was emotionally cheating on me with different people while i was helping them build life now he left to Germany for his higher studies i dont know i feel broken and there is a void in my heart because i love him with all my heart even though i know he betrayed and did everything that broke me into pieces and the way he never changed the pattern was clear i was blinded by his manipulation the chaos. I know my love should end but i don't know
hii ^^
so, na-read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa’kin. tbh, I’ve read it more than a few times na, like seriously, mga three or four times siguro 😭 kasi every time I read it, I end up smiling again and sinabihan pa nga ako ni ate na nababaliw na daw ako. I really appreciate it a lot, as in sobra. you actually took the time and effort to write everything down, and that means so much to me. kinikilig ako habang binabasa 'yon kasi... secret :p
habang binabasa ko siya, I could really feel your sincerity. parang every...hii ^^
so, na-read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa’kin. tbh, I’ve read it more than a few times na, like seriously, mga three or four times siguro 😭 kasi every time I read it, I end up smiling again and sinabihan pa nga ako ni ate na nababaliw na daw ako. I really appreciate it a lot, as in sobra. you actually took the time and effort to write everything down, and that means so much to me. kinikilig ako habang binabasa 'yon kasi... secret :p
habang binabasa ko siya, I could really feel your sincerity. parang every word came straight from your heart. I even paused for a moment kasi I was like, “wow, totoo ba ‘to? hindi naman at ito laro diba?” hahaha wala talaga akong tiwala sa guys before :0, and you changed that :). I’m not even joking, it’s my first time receiving a letter from someone who genuinely likes me, not just as a friend, but in a deeper way. most of the letters I’ve received before are just birthday messages, friendly notes or whatever. blah blah blah
I appreciate you so much for being honest and brave enough to express what you feel. not everyone can do that, lalo na sa panahon ngayon. that’s why it really meant a lot to me, kasi it’s not just a random note, it’s something you actually poured your feelings into. I can tell you didn’t just write it for the sake of it, but because you truly meant every word. and that honestly touched me.
(That came wrong... I'm doubting it tbh 😓 kasi what if you lost your feelings na pala diba? paano na ako nyan?? crycry)
anyways, to answer your question , yes, I do want you to be my personal assistant. hahaha cute mo dun, kasi yung naman yung tinanong mo eh. but I know that question means more than what it says. and don’t worry, I get it. I understand the deeper meaning behind it. hindi naman kasi ako manhid, duh 🙄 kidding aside, I thought about it seriously before answering. I didn’t want to just say yes without meaning it. so believe me when I say this. I’m being real and honest with you. (kung ayaw mo 'di wag :<)
I like you too po :)
there, I said it na haha. I don’t know if this will change anything between us, but what I do know is that I’m really happy you wrote that letter. you made my day, and maybe even my whole week. I keep rereading it when I feel down kasi it’s just so sweet, and it reminds me that someone out there thinks of me that way.
thank you for making me feel appreciated, seen, and cared for. you have this quiet way of making people smile, and I’m glad I get to be one of them. I hope we can continue being close, laughing together, and making more memories just like what you wrote. and again, thank you for the effort, for the words, and for making my heart smile today. promise, I’ll keep your letter, it’s something I’ll always remember.
hii ^^
so, na-read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa’kin. tbh, i’ve read it more than a few times na, like seriously, mga three or four times siguro 😭 kasi every time i read it, i end up smiling again and sinabihan pa nga ako ni ate na nababaliw na daw ako. i really appreciate it a lot, as in sobra. you actually took the time and effort to write everything down, and that means so much to me. hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako kinilig and na-touch sa bawat line ng sinulat mo.
habang binabasa ko siya,...hii ^^
so, na-read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa’kin. tbh, i’ve read it more than a few times na, like seriously, mga three or four times siguro 😭 kasi every time i read it, i end up smiling again and sinabihan pa nga ako ni ate na nababaliw na daw ako. i really appreciate it a lot, as in sobra. you actually took the time and effort to write everything down, and that means so much to me. hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako kinilig and na-touch sa bawat line ng sinulat mo.
habang binabasa ko siya, i could really feel your sincerity. parang every word came straight from your heart. i even paused for a moment kasi i was like, “wow, totoo ba ‘to? hindi naman at ito laro diva?” hahaha. and i’m not even joking, my heart literally felt warm the whole time. it’s my first time receiving a letter from someone who genuinely likes me, not just as a friend, but in a deeper way. most of the letters i’ve received before are just birthday messages, friendly notes or whatever.
i appreciate you so much for being honest and brave enough to express what you feel. not everyone can do that, lalo na sa panahon ngayon. that’s why it really meant a lot to me, kasi it’s not just a random note, it’s something you actually poured your feelings into. i can tell you didn’t just write it for the sake of it, but because you truly meant every word. and that honestly touched me. (I'm doubting tbh 😓)
and yes, to answer your question , yes, i do want you to be my personal assistant. hahaha cute mo dun, but i know that question means more than what it says. and don’t worry, i get it. i understand the deeper meaning behind it. hindi naman kasi ako manhid, duh 🙄 kidding aside, i thought about it seriously before answering. i didn’t want to just say yes without meaning it. so believe me when i say this. i’m being real and honest with you.
i like you too po :)
there, i said it na haha. i don’t know if this will change anything between us, but what i do know is that i’m really happy you wrote that letter. you made my day, and maybe even my whole week. i keep rereading it when i feel down kasi it’s just so sweet, and it reminds me that someone out there thinks of me that way.
thank you for making me feel appreciated, seen, and cared for. you have this quiet way of making people smile, and i’m glad i get to be one of them. i hope we can continue being close, laughing together, and making more memories just like what you wrote. and again, thank you for the effort, for the words, and for making my heart smile today. promise, i’ll keep your letter, it’s something i’ll always remember.
-K
hii ^^
So, na read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa'kin. tbh, I've read it a few times, and I really appreciate it a lot kasi you put your effort into it, and nakangiti po ako habang binabasa 'yon kasi like duh it's my first time receiving a letter from someone who genuinely like me kaya... most letter I've received galing sa friends ko, birthday letter or whatever. I really really appreciate it very very much.
and to answer your question, YES. I do want you to be my personal assistant, kasi yan yung tanong mo eh hahaha,...hii ^^
So, na read ko na po yung letter na pinabigay mo sa'kin. tbh, I've read it a few times, and I really appreciate it a lot kasi you put your effort into it, and nakangiti po ako habang binabasa 'yon kasi like duh it's my first time receiving a letter from someone who genuinely like me kaya... most letter I've received galing sa friends ko, birthday letter or whatever. I really really appreciate it very very much.
and to answer your question, YES. I do want you to be my personal assistant, kasi yan yung tanong mo eh hahaha, pero I understand the deeper meaning of your letter po kasi hindi naman ako manhid, duh 🙄. kidding, pinag-isipan ko po ito ha, hindi po ito joke. I'm dead serious here. I like you too po :)
-K