My boyfriend broke up with me, and I realize that I don't remember anything about the relationship. I thought that everything was a blur and dream-like with him because "I was in love" but now that it's over I realized I've been dissociating this whole time because I don't feel secure or safe with him. He threatened to break up with me during every disagreement, screamed at me and said that he was forced to yell because my actions made him, everything was my fault and I don't know why but if I asked he would get mad and say, "you should just know." I woke up two days in a row and my first thought was, "I'm glad it's finally over."
Sounds like a toxic relationship and you're better off without him