Anonymous Confession

I kinda lost myself in life in recent times, I forced a relationship that I knew it wasnt right for me and then it ended with breakup obviously, I was forcing it because I was afraid of being alone and that nobody will ever love me since I got asthma.. I did good things after breakup I dedicated this whole time only for myself to discover myself and work on my mindset, and I been progressing a lot Im so proud on me, I stopped chasing people or forcing connections, I let the life flow naturally. Only thing I am missing is doing the action , doing things that I want to such as going to learn French language , going to dancing lessons, opening myself to meeting new people, those 3 things is what I crave for but I still didnt do anything about that. At times I feel lonely , most of my friends moved to different cities or got married, I was feeling bit jelous at times but later I realized life would be boring if we all had same destiny and same timing, so I know God will let amazing woman enter my life and me getting married at the right time so I stopped overthinking about that topic. There are still good and bad days in my life but I am trying to keep a positive mindset, and now I am finally asking myself the right questions and having a different perspective on life situations, and I am feeling lighter than ever. Biggest lesson I learned is love firstly and mostly comes from inside myself. Meditations help me and in all of them God tells me just to be myself 101% and that right people will resonate with me. And thats what I am going to do from now on. No chasing , no forcing.. just me being me. I locked in during period of individuation which was helpful but now its time for me to be open to the world.