im so fake. i fake being confident. i hate being alone so im always out. i always lie and say i feel amazing. but in reality i drink alone 2-3x a week bc i remember too much. i opened up to someone a couple days ago and she said "everyone would kill to be you" that pmo so bad. it feels like my problems arent as important and idk how much longer i can last tbh. sometimes i just feel void for some time and thats honestly better bc at least i wont drink.