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I love the people where I live, but i genuinely hate being here, and i kind of want to leave and start over. I really don't know what to do.

I need to get this off my chest. I've spent what feels like nearly a decade trying to understand a person who, looking back, was less a partner and more a phantom. This isn't a breakup story; it's a deep dive into a void. It started innocently enough, back in our college days. We had a brief, intense relationship. Then, after just a few months, she left me for another guy. Gone. Poof. But later, she was back, admitting her "mistake," begging for a second chance. I, foolishly, took her back. That set the pattern. For what felt like ages, this was...I need to get this off my chest. I've spent what feels like nearly a decade trying to understand a person who, looking back, was less a partner and more a phantom. This isn't a breakup story; it's a deep dive into a void. It started innocently enough, back in our college days. We had a brief, intense relationship. Then, after just a few months, she left me for another guy. Gone. Poof. But later, she was back, admitting her "mistake," begging for a second chance. I, foolishly, took her back. That set the pattern. For what felt like ages, this was my reality. She'd pull away, vanish, and I'd later discover she was with someone else. Then, when their relationships inevitably crashed and burned, she'd reappear, filled with remorse and promises. Each time, I opened my heart, desperate for the genuine connection I thought we had. The deeper I went, the darker it got. While I thought we were exclusive, committing everything to her, she was intimately involved with many different people during this time. A double life I couldn't even fathom. The betrayal felt like a punch to the gut, but there was more. There was the marriage saga. At one point, when we were talking constantly, she secretly planned her own marriage to another guy – someone she'd been in a physical relationship with for a couple of years! She only told me after the wedding was fixed, blaming her family, a lie I later learned. That marriage ended in a short time, apparently due to his toxic behavior. And guess what? Not long after, she was back again, admitting her "mistake" about not choosing me. This is where my biggest blind spot hit. I gave her one last, desperate chance. We even agreed to marry. I approached my family, overriding their initial reservations, making my father cry as he begged me not to go through with it. My friends stopped speaking to me. I sacrificed everything for her. And then, silence. Ghosted again. But the worst part? During the toughest time of my life – recovering from a serious accident that left me bedridden for an extended period, with my father gravely ill, and me struggling to pay our mortgage and find a job – she was right there. Or so I thought. She knew every struggle, every penny I desperately needed. Yet, she asked me for a significant sum of money, claiming urgent needs. I gave it, foolishly, only to later learn that money, my hard-earned money, went straight into the pockets of the very people she was secretly seeing. It wasn't just a loan; it was a calculated extraction. And there's another dark twist. Her best friend, who helped her immensely during her divorce process, later discovered that my ex had seduced her boyfriend and slept with him. Her actions were a masterclass in manipulation, exploiting trust, loyalty, and even love for her own gain. There was no remorse, no accountability, just a chilling self-preservation that defied logic. I finally sent my last words, and her reply was a chilling echo: "You have no idea what I'm going through, I did what was best for me." That sentence, so cold, so self-serving, perfectly encapsulated the years of shadows. I'm left with questions that haunt me. How can someone be so utterly devoid of empathy? How can they weave such an intricate web of lies for so long? Was it a game? A necessity? Or something far darker, a void where a conscience should be? This isn't about getting answers from her anymore. It's about understanding the nature of such a profound deception, and how someone can exist like a ghost, taking everything and leaving nothing but ruins. Has anyone encountered a soul so utterly… shapeless?Read More

my perspective on Death has recently changed , I don’t know if it an age thing, I am nearing my 40’s. Im thinking death can be liberating , many would think of death as bad thing, pain and suffering . But what if it’s Eternal peace , no more suffering. But we are program so see it as a bad thing my but society or survival instinct that bring fear about death ..

I've fallen hard for my best friend, I don't know how to feel about this

Oh, you made me sober. I stopped everything for you, you, dear! Thank you for everything.. thank you for being there for me.

I haven't kissed someone since you. My first and last. I wish that I didn't run and tell you I just wanted to be friends, only for us to never speak again. I kissed you so many times that night and I still think about your lips on mine. The alcohol on my tongue, the Vegas heat, your hand in mine. I miss you and I never really knew you. I visited the country you were born and I searched for pieces of you in every corner. I will probably never speak to you again and I'm so sorry for...I haven't kissed someone since you. My first and last. I wish that I didn't run and tell you I just wanted to be friends, only for us to never speak again. I kissed you so many times that night and I still think about your lips on mine. The alcohol on my tongue, the Vegas heat, your hand in mine. I miss you and I never really knew you. I visited the country you were born and I searched for pieces of you in every corner. I will probably never speak to you again and I'm so sorry for that. Were you lying when you said you felt the same way or did I break your heart when I left?Read More

I love you cody, more than anything, I wish you would just choose us. I want to be your wife when we grow old.

since i got into collage, i've experience so many bad experience about relationship that make me wanna be single for a long time and don't trust man easily. but out of nowhere, i have a connection with some random boy that's really my type and he feel the same. i've never see someone that's close to my type, i always get close to the one that's look like an ogre with a stone heart. but im really scared, what if he's just a boy with handsome face but not handsome heart? i really want to know him but not for...since i got into collage, i've experience so many bad experience about relationship that make me wanna be single for a long time and don't trust man easily. but out of nowhere, i have a connection with some random boy that's really my type and he feel the same. i've never see someone that's close to my type, i always get close to the one that's look like an ogre with a stone heart. but im really scared, what if he's just a boy with handsome face but not handsome heart? i really want to know him but not for a relationshipRead More

From:confidential Haiii👋 I HAVE CRUSH ON YOUU🌹💐 singkat aja aku ga berharap lebih broo(kit heart) sorry dah jadi cegil yang tergila gila😅. Karna kamu ganteng bangett woyyy bisa dikurangin dikit ga sih ganteng nyaa😶. Udah ah bye mas crush👋

I feel like a failure. I'm 17. This isn't one of those situations where I'm a typical teen that goes to school and is learning how to drive (which I AM learning how to drive, but its been taking forever,) but I got pulled out of school around 3rd grade. Was in learning groups of some kind for a few years, moved, covid hit, and now I'm... this. I'm off-putting. I never go out. I'm a shut in. I'm unpleasant to be around. I want to be kinder, to be better. To be normal. Doesn't help that I'm trans, either....I feel like a failure. I'm 17. This isn't one of those situations where I'm a typical teen that goes to school and is learning how to drive (which I AM learning how to drive, but its been taking forever,) but I got pulled out of school around 3rd grade. Was in learning groups of some kind for a few years, moved, covid hit, and now I'm... this. I'm off-putting. I never go out. I'm a shut in. I'm unpleasant to be around. I want to be kinder, to be better. To be normal. Doesn't help that I'm trans, either. Makes me stick out more. I am most certainly not intelligent enough to get a job, and this economy, this job market, is only making it harder.Read More

When my boyfriend and my brother are together I become increasingly anxious.

my parents are getting divorced and idk what to do. they don’t realise that constantly arguing is also taking a toll on me :(

I remember when I was about 7 years old. There was a boy/ teenager by the name of Hassan, who had a severe disability. He was kind of mute and rode around in some sort of a tricycle. Me and my 'friends' where making fun of him and I remember one time he had enough of it and wanted to shout at us, but as he was not able to communicate with us well, which made us make fun of him even more. This is now almost 30 years ago and I havent seen him ever since I was around 10 years...I remember when I was about 7 years old. There was a boy/ teenager by the name of Hassan, who had a severe disability. He was kind of mute and rode around in some sort of a tricycle. Me and my 'friends' where making fun of him and I remember one time he had enough of it and wanted to shout at us, but as he was not able to communicate with us well, which made us make fun of him even more. This is now almost 30 years ago and I havent seen him ever since I was around 10 years old. I often wonder about him and I feel soo bad for treating him like that. I hated myself for my behaviour for a long time (even till this day) and wish I could somehow redeem myself. He deserved soo much more. I even sometimes cry about all the things I said and did... After puberty and in my early twenties I became a real sensitive and empathic person, so I can only imagine what he felt like every day of his live. God please forgive me I wish God could forgive me and I deserve punishment for what I did. I absolutely hated myself for this and wish I could let it go somehow. I hope Hassan is at peace, has a wonderful life and hope he can find it in his heart to forgive me for my behaviour. He did not deserve that and the world does not need people like me. From the deepest part of my soul: Im so sorry Hassan. (please forgive me?)Read More

I remember when I was about 7 years ago. There was a boy/ teenager by the name of Hassan, who had a severe disability. He was kind of mute and rode around in some sort of a tricycle. Me and my 'friends' where making fun of him and I remember one time he had enough of it and wanted to shout at us, but as he was not able to communicate with us well, which made us make fun of him even more. This is now almost 30 years ago and I havent seen him ever since I was around 10 years...I remember when I was about 7 years ago. There was a boy/ teenager by the name of Hassan, who had a severe disability. He was kind of mute and rode around in some sort of a tricycle. Me and my 'friends' where making fun of him and I remember one time he had enough of it and wanted to shout at us, but as he was not able to communicate with us well, which made us make fun of him even more. This is now almost 30 years ago and I havent seen him ever since I was around 10 years old. I often wonder about him and I feel soo bad for treating him like that. I hated myself for my behaviour for a long time (even till this day) and wish I could somehow redeem myself. He deserved soo much more. I even sometimes cry about all the things I said and did... After puberty and in my early twenties I became a real sensitive and empathic person, so I can only imagine what he felt like every day of his live. God please forgive me I wish God could forgive me and I deserve punishment for what I did. I absolutely hated myself for this and wish I could let it go somehow. I hope Hassan is at peace, has a wonderful life and hope he can find it in his heart to forgive me for my behaviour. He did not deserve that and the world does not need people like me. From the deepest part of my soul: Im so sorry Hassan. (please forgive me?)Read More

I just found out that one of my friends has some very weird views on human rights that I heavily disagree with (being vague so ppl don’t get mad if they disagree with me in the comments). I don’t want to stop being friends with him but also feel very strongly about this issue. And admittedly, on an extremely selfish level, I worry about how this reflects on me as a person. Any advice on how to approach this or is this something I should just kinda ignore?