My mom reminded me today that having kids is my choice. One friend just announced her pregnancy and another is about to give birth. I want to have kids so bad, but until I leave my husband (and heal and find and learn to trust someone new), that can't happen.
I've been talking a center medication for as long as I can remember and my parents always made it a point that I never forget to take my medication everyday EVER, so I took them without question but I got older I would ask what medication it is and they would just tell me its vitamins sometimes I'd believe them but sometimes it just felt like they were hiding something. So one time I got the medication container and did a Google image search to try and figure what this medication could be and when I did the image search...I've been talking a center medication for as long as I can remember and my parents always made it a point that I never forget to take my medication everyday EVER, so I took them without question but I got older I would ask what medication it is and they would just tell me its vitamins sometimes I'd believe them but sometimes it just felt like they were hiding something. So one time I got the medication container and did a Google image search to try and figure what this medication could be and when I did the image search it turns out I've been talking ARVs and I'm on ART. Now when I realised what I just found out I was so confused like when did they have to like about it 😐 I always knew they were hiding something but this is a lot. Mean when. I was a kid I could forgive then maybe they thought I wouldn't understand but when. I became a teenager they didn't think to tell me something so important I've gone basically my whole life without knowing I'm hiv positive and I am so confused I don't even know how to approach them about this. I'm literally 24 now and they just go about their days like everything is fine 😕 .I known for a while now but I want them to tell me to my face why they hid this for all these years now. I'm honestly so disappointed in them
Aight so am I wrong for this? For context this is me and one of my ex-school friends. When we first met up, one of the first "personal talks" we had was about him having a crush on this girl in my school. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue, BUT, when he told me who it was, it turned out she was also the same girl that I liked. BUT, being a good friend, I didn't say anything about it. However, I come to learn that this dude has had a crush on her for a little over THREE WHOLE...Aight so am I wrong for this? For context this is me and one of my ex-school friends. When we first met up, one of the first "personal talks" we had was about him having a crush on this girl in my school. Normally, this wouldn't be an issue, BUT, when he told me who it was, it turned out she was also the same girl that I liked. BUT, being a good friend, I didn't say anything about it. However, I come to learn that this dude has had a crush on her for a little over THREE WHOLE YEARS and more importantly, STILL hasn't asked her out. Over the school year, I try to give him pointers (😒) on how to ask this girl out. And even with me legendary pulling advice, he still managed to fumble at every turn. Closer to the end of the year, he finally asks her out straight out and open, and she rejects him. She is super chill about it too, I was there. But he took it personally, and not only got mad at her, BUT GOT MAD AT ME. Because, "apparently", he had known the whole time that she liked me instead. So, he decides to start talking shit about me, and start spreading the rumor that I had a crush on the same girl around the school. However, instead of trying to deny the middle school ahh rumor, I went with it. Saying that I did actually have a crush on the girl. Now, I could have left it at that. But I decided to ask her out just to spite him. Made sure he knew about it to. And me and her have now been dating for like 7 months now.
We were 14 and you were my first girlfriend. I was crazy about you! It only lasted a few months, and it ended badly because I was young and stupid. I had gone out of state for a couple of weeks during the Summer, and while there, became completely infatuated with another girl. When I came home, the first time I saw you -- at church no less -- I told you that I'd met someone else. I didn't realize at the time how crass and uncaring I was being. This was 50 years ago, and the idea that I'd...We were 14 and you were my first girlfriend. I was crazy about you! It only lasted a few months, and it ended badly because I was young and stupid. I had gone out of state for a couple of weeks during the Summer, and while there, became completely infatuated with another girl. When I came home, the first time I saw you -- at church no less -- I told you that I'd met someone else. I didn't realize at the time how crass and uncaring I was being. This was 50 years ago, and the idea that I'd done that kind of hurt to you has been bugging me lately. I feel compelled to apologize to you. I've found you on facebook and you seem to be very happy. I considered sending you a message, but there are too many reasons why this is a bad idea. I'm sure that you likely haven't even thought about me for many years. I don't want to reconnect, I just want to apologize. So I'm putting it here, knowing that you'll never see it, but hopefully getting it out into the ether will send some good karma your way. I'm sorry, Nancy, for the way I ended things with you. I was a complete jerk and you deserved better than that.
To, C, I deeply love you and have for years. But to you I'm just a good friend. You've dated everyone we hang out with, but never give me a chance. Even my brother, which now makes it really awkward for me.
Top 5 only child cannon events:
1- hearing "I wish I was an only child!"
2- everyone assuming you're selfish and spoiled when you tell them.
3- always by yourself growing up.
4- not having friends your age.
5- having to be the perfect child.
Honorable mention: realizing you'll be all alone when your parents pass
Honorable mention 2: getting too attached to people.
i've been a horrible friend my whole life. downright mean girl for all of pre and middle school, told my friend who told me her mom was depressed because she had miscarriages and that she was cutting that she was lying(implied it, which is not much better), currently living a lie and have been horrible to every person in my life. i feel irredeemable and to a point, i am. i can only be better moving forward but the lie i live in today feel boulders. i can't afford to hurt another deeply wonderful person. this comes from a place...i've been a horrible friend my whole life. downright mean girl for all of pre and middle school, told my friend who told me her mom was depressed because she had miscarriages and that she was cutting that she was lying(implied it, which is not much better), currently living a lie and have been horrible to every person in my life. i feel irredeemable and to a point, i am. i can only be better moving forward but the lie i live in today feel boulders. i can't afford to hurt another deeply wonderful person. this comes from a place of selfishness, i can't carry any more guilt. i am too terrible to confess.
He's just down right gorgeous and so talented, we share interests together and we always talk about them in depth, I don't know but I feel like I'm down bad for him. He's just so amazing I can't help it but I could never confess my feelings or even tell our friends
Right I'm saying this so I can sleep at night, for like a year I had two twitter accounts were I pretended to be two different people who were dating. I befriended a few people and had group chats with them and whatever until they were like "Hey these photos are from Pinterest these ain't you ho" and I shit myself and made up some stupid story then deleted the accounts. I have NO idea what possessed me to pretend I was a dude when I'm a girl and I feel so bad about it but I'm too scared to...Right I'm saying this so I can sleep at night, for like a year I had two twitter accounts were I pretended to be two different people who were dating. I befriended a few people and had group chats with them and whatever until they were like "Hey these photos are from Pinterest these ain't you ho" and I shit myself and made up some stupid story then deleted the accounts. I have NO idea what possessed me to pretend I was a dude when I'm a girl and I feel so bad about it but I'm too scared to redownload twitter and tell them that
I hate it when people who have friends say, "I have no friends.." YES YOU DO. It's always people feeling bad for teenagers who FEEL like they don't have friends until it's a teen like me who ACTUALLY doesn't have friends. Of course you're still valid if you just feel like you don't have Friends. But you'll never know what it feels like to actually not have friends. To not have anyone who would call you a friend and genuinely not even know anyone. "Just go make friends." That's is easier said than done. It's not easy to just make...I hate it when people who have friends say, "I have no friends.." YES YOU DO. It's always people feeling bad for teenagers who FEEL like they don't have friends until it's a teen like me who ACTUALLY doesn't have friends. Of course you're still valid if you just feel like you don't have Friends. But you'll never know what it feels like to actually not have friends. To not have anyone who would call you a friend and genuinely not even know anyone. "Just go make friends." That's is easier said than done. It's not easy to just make friends especially if you are homeschooled. Even joining other activities, it's hard to make friends because everyone already knows each other and it's easy for them to blend in with people and make new friends. When you've grown uo being around people your whole life, it's east to make friends and fit in. But when you haven't, it's not that easy. Your summer is spent never doing anything, not even being able to talk and get along with your cousins during a family function, always staying in your house and doing nothing fun all summer like most people. You feel like you should be doing more with your life because you're already in your teen years and everyone your age is going to parties and hanging out with friends, but you simply don't have anyone to hang out with other than your parents. It's not that's it's embarrassing to hang out with them, you just want someone your age who will actually understand you and understand your jokes. When you're hanging out with your parents, they'll always remind you that they're still your parent and your the child if they get angry with you or if you mess up too bad. If you are lucky enough to have friends, invite them to go somewhere instead of waiting on them to invite you and complaining about "not having any".