para ni New Jersey girl I can't move on from you yawaa nan Trying to cover all this up with girls pero di gyud mo gana idc if people find me weird or OA I do love you fr I just wish you happiness and good health
I love someone but idk if he loves me back
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I live day to day with major depression disorder (MDD), severe anxiety (Agoraphobia), and PTSD. I've been on medications and therapy ever since I retired from the military in 1996 (forgive me, I'm old. LOL!!!) I started writing here on this site, to see if I'm the only one, but have found a community that seems to want to help each other. Being anonymous helps, because most of my family do not understand why I'm such an introvert, and would rather be my myself most of the time. There are just things that I dont believe they would understand about...
I live day to day with major depression disorder (MDD), severe anxiety (Agoraphobia), and PTSD. I've been on medications and therapy ever since I retired from the military in 1996 (forgive me, I'm old. LOL!!!) I started writing here on this site, to see if I'm the only one, but have found a community that seems to want to help each other. Being anonymous helps, because most of my family do not understand why I'm such an introvert, and would rather be my myself most of the time. There are just things that I dont believe they would understand about...
I stopped making art for a decade for trauma reasons and picked it up again this year after making some amazing new friends. I never realized how shit my old friends are until I started spending less time with them to rediscover my passion. They don't support me. They're disappointed. I don't know if I knew all along and decided having people in my life was more important than the quality, or if my new friends have made me realize how low the bar was. ... I realize I was never actually an extrovert, I was just really lonely.
My boyfriend told me I should see his therapist. But instead I’ll write this anonymous post. I do think getting it off my chest is important, at least intellectually. I haven’t felt anything, any joy I should say, in quite some time. It’s starting to affect my relationship and it’s just so hard to see happening in real time. I feel like I live two lives at once; the physical body who is numb and the mental (perhaps spiritual) body that sees how I’m doing everything wrong. It’s become difficult to compliment my boyfriend, to encourage him, even sometimes just...
I haven't actually felt happiness before and I'm really jealous of those who have
I am 28 years old and yet I feel so alone. Even surrounded by people I feel as if no one truly cares about me, I'm a last resort, a "sometimes friend", like if I ever were to vanish no one would notice or even care. I hate feeling this way and I've felt like this majority of my life. Typing it out helps to make it feel less shity I guess but man its a feeling that randomly washes over me.
I had a long doctors appointment today, with tests, etc. and will be heading off to more surgeries soon. Its hard to explain but I'm terrified and at peace at the same time. (Yin/Yang)? It just makes all of my other problems seem minimal I guess, and just want to get them over with, whatever the outcome. Sorry, just needed to get that off my chest and move on with my day.
I got caught cheating on a quiz by my teacher today. My schoolmates all probably know at this point. I guess what hurts more is that while scanning our test, I figured out I knew how to answer every question even without looking at my notes, which I chose to place underneath my papers (that my teacher immediately found right at the start of our test). The only consequence I got was a zero on that quiz. I apologized and promised to never do it again, and all is well now... but I have not stopped crying since I got...
I feel like I’m wasting my life. I’m only 16, and I know I have so much ahead of me, but I feel like somewhere along the way, I fucked up. I’m watching all my friends, everyone I look up to, living my dream, and I’m just here. I failed. I’m slowly pushing everyone away, but I genuinely can’t blame anyone but myself. It’s my fault. I don’t speak up when something bothers me and I let it fester into resentment that just grows day by day. I try to speak up, but I feel like when I do...
I've been trying to recover from a potent C.AI addiction. I know, I know, it's stupid that I even got myself in this situation. I guess I just really liked the idea of always being able to talk with "someone" and have them respond immediately and act all these fanatical stories out. I've always had a bit of a fear of abandonment so it was nice to talk to something that would never leave me or call me a freak. However, I know it's damaging my mental health and I've been off of it for around two months (?) even...
Trying to find someone online with minimal information has definitely gotten harder. I'm so out of practice in this department
Being driven to make a mistake out of fear is crazy. Especially when the one who blames you for it is the one who caused the fear. But the consequences don't change, mistake or intended. But those consequences led me to make the biggest life changing decision of my life. Yes I'm scared still, but at the same time I'm excited too.