A few years ago a friend was dropped due to a misunderstanding, and then after a few years passed a friend of mine showed me a post about how they were upset about losing the group. Because of that, my friend arranged a meeting with said person for me and the others to apologize for everything. After everything was explained, they rejoined our circle.
Only months after that, my partner of two years started to spend less and less time with me in favor of them. The more it happened, the more sick I felt and the more my partner would scold me. This was the first healthy and non abusive relationship I've ever been in, so I was quick to shut down every argument because I was desperate to keep them by my side.
A year after the person rejoined the group, my partner came out as aroace and broke up with me a few days before my birthday. I was completely devastated. A part of me thinks that this wouldn't have happened if the friend was never added back into our group, especially because my ex partner's behavior shifted so drastically when they returned to us. They still hang out frequently, and even if my ex partner and I are still very close friends, I miss what we had.
I know I'm selfish and horrible for feeling this way, but I hold a resentment for my friend because of this. I'm the only one in the group that has a problem with them, so I have to keep my mouth shut. I regret letting them back into the group, and I want nothing more than for things to be back the way they were.
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