Anonymous Confession

I feel stuck, I don't know what to do or feel anymore.I left everything behind moved to a different country to be with my spouse, loved him very much but he doesn't seem to be interested in me anymore.We are faithful to one another. He is in his world and is neglectful of me. He is not changing despite being told how I feel. I met someone at work who seemed to be very caring and always protected me,helped me without expecting anything from me. And we kept our distance and never spoke except if it's work related.Kept our gaze down and mutually avoided one another many times yet we seem to actually bump into one another or accidentally in awkward situations like bumping into one another physically while trying to avoid , or dropping things while handing it to the other. We had trust between us and unspoken bond despite trying not to feel anyway about this person, and I found out he has a GF and he knew I have a spouse and we mutually avoided while feeling drawn to one another, he always helped sometimes indirectly made my life much easier and feeling cared while being in distance. And one day he left without a word. I tried to text to ask if he is coming back to work and no reply and found he joined other work through his social media. We never added one another in social media, and I miss him terribly and it is intensely painful not being able to see him again, I wish I could still see him again or work with him even if we never speak, I keep hoping he could call me once and say how he feels towards me. But he won't he has his partner and he knows I have spouse. This bond has no name,but it shattered me more than anything I felt in my life. This isn't my first heart break in life but this was very strong despite not speaking a word to one another. I am trying to let go of his memories and thoughts. I pray I can live without his thoughts again. I am back once again into the sadness I feel single while I am married . I can't go after other relationships like single people either. I don't feel this way about other people either but him. This pain is too much to bear. I hope I will heal from this in future.