I wish someone out there would find me pretty enough to love. No matter what I do, no matter how much I try to be prettier, all those attempts makes me feel like a pig with a lipstick on. People my age already had their shares of romance, some dating, some having exes, some flirting with someone...And then there's me. I never thought I would come to this, but I crave to be loved, to find someone who would find me pretty, someone who won't pretend just so they could make me happy. Someone who would trully love me all the way, inside and outside. And I can't even share this to anyone, because I know they'll laugh, or just say "Oh, you'll find the rigt person." except I really doubt it.
There is more to life than being pretty, trying to impress, or influence others. Beauty is subjective and abstract. A person that only looks for a person who thinks that beauty is what they are looking for live a very shallow and empty life, and will never be truly happy. Everyone has more to them than just being pretty. I fell for my partner for her kindness, intelligence, and for looking past my own flaws that I thought would be a negative to anyone. When you find the person who likes you for more than just beauty, the rest of the attraction will follow. Don't change yourself to please the shallow crowd, be yourself and show that you have more to offer that truly matters. I know that I may be old, and I have had my share of scars along the way, but after being married over 40 years, has proven to me that attraction is definitely more than skin deep. Just be yourself and the right person will come along.
I'm not sure that kind of love actually exists, but good luck.
Dont change yourself and who you are to try to please others. Let them see the real you, and they will find the beauty you bring to their world. Hugs