im so fake. i fake being confident. i hate being alone so im always out. i always lie and say i feel amazing. but in reality i drink alone 2-3x a week bc i remember too much. i opened up to someone a couple days ago and she said "everyone would kill to be you" that pmo so bad. it feels like my problems arent as important and idk how much longer i can last tbh. sometimes i just feel void for some time and thats honestly better bc at least i wont drink.
it’s only you living your life. if you pretend to be something you aren’t all the time you can’t blame others for perceiving you exactly as that. if that annoys you, change.