Iām a failed artist. Yes, I graduated art school with perfect grades. But what I can do is not good enough for me. I barely draw anymore. My dream was to make some piece of media that stuck with people. I get attached to indie game characters, specifically non-human ones. I wish I was that character, or at least the one who made them.
I relate heavily as someone who dropped out of art school due to political climate and overwhelming course load. The professor also hit on one of my friends haha. I just try to copy photos I find on Pinterest so I don't lose my skill completely. It's hard out there but I can tell you still have that passion in your heart, not all hope is lost friend. Remember; comparison is the thief of joy.
I didn't go to art school, but I feel the same way. I see the value in influencing people for positive change. I often desirs to make something that impacts or moves people to the core. I have some ideas, but often I feel like the task is insurmountable.
God bless you. May you achieve your dreams real soon.