Anonymous Confession

I bestfriend rejected my love for her. It has been almost a year. I could not move on, feel depressed and hurt. This pain is like a sword in my chest. I even travelled to another continent where she is now, just to go see her because she told me she missed me. I never realized before but there I knew that she is talking to someone, which she proclaimers to be just a friend. She even told me she rejected him as he is just a friend and not even an option for her. She told me I am her best friend so she could not love me. I was never an option too for her and don't want to lose me. Now, I found out that she is now dating a guy who she told me that it's just a friend. I felt been played by her during these months. I tried my best to stop texting her because she is never consistent replying to me, but when I stop she gives me breadcrumbs again and this cycle has been continuous. I feel like I am being used. I feel like I lost my best friend who I trusted. I feel like I lost a soul-mate. I lost a part of myself and my heart shattered in pieces. I am sure she could not even care and now is happy with that dude, while I am completely broken. Its not like I cannot get other girls. I feel disappointed and hurt about the rejection from the person closest to you and who I really care for.