I'm consumed by the feeling that I've been living someone else's life. Every decision, every relationship, every career move has been influenced by the expectations of others. I'm not sure who I am or what I want, and it's suffocating me.
That is a totally valid feeling to have, and I am sorry that you are going through that. I think I can relate because I have felt similarly for the majority of my life. I can't offer an immediate fix but one thing that helped me along my way to not feeling like that was starting with very small opinions that I could stick to without a second thought. For example, my favorite flavor of ice cream is vanilla, and that is something I have practiced sticking by no matter what anyone else thinks. Doing this with as many things as I can has helped me gradually move on to more significant opinions like what career am I passionate about, what I look for in a partner, etc. Good luck, you can do it!
i get it
I get it.