Anonymous Confession

I've been in love with this guy since I was in middle school. No one knows this secret. Literally no one.
In the middle school, I liked him, not a fall in love at the first sight. I often saw him when he went to the canteen or just went with his friends through my classroom corridor. Then, suddenly, someday I found him so adorable so I started to get to know him better. Unfortunately, I was a shy, antisocial, introvert and anxious girl at that time. I did not dare to say hi to him (to everyone actully). So, I just wrote his name on my diary. Looking for his pictures on facebook and everything I could do to know him more. Until I graduated middle school, he did not happen to know me. Even my name. The closest moment I spent with him was when I sat so closely to him (about 2 meters away.
then, He and I went to different high school so I've never met him again. After graduated from high school, I discovered that he went to the same campus as me. However, now I am about to graduate from college, I've never met him.
I've never loved any guy but him. I am waiting for him, even though i dont know what I am waiting for. Maybe a posiblity that we would meet again someday and be together? I don't know.

P. s I never have a sweet story with him, I just have his name.